FRIDAYMUCH.

Got some few itty bittsies today.

It feels like again, I’m holding on to the same old thread. Somehow, hopes still at my side.

I walk on the same path everyday. Got so many humps along the way. I close my eyes to escape.. just for a minute.. Even for a second. Nothing can knock this out. I’m so tired and so disheartened.

The truth is, everyday feels like a cut of blade.

Sometimes I blame myself, if only I could have shown my real feelings.

Just randomly, last night a friend of mine reminds me this, “LET YOUR YES MEANS YES, AND YOUR NO MEANS NO”. Quite easy to say so, but it is so hard to do.

We all hide our emotions, not just because we are afraid others might look down at us.

Most of the times we hide our true emotion because we are afraid to hurt someone.

It may seem to be vulnerable to the part of the person who is pretending, but when we try to scrutinize and look even closer we might see that those people are also the same brave people who are willing to sacrifice everything including his own happiness just for the sake of someone he loves.


The best remedy for a broken soul and a broken heart would be enough as something like a sweet smile from the person who is worth the pain.


I love my family…. My friends… you…. It’s just that things aren’t so perfect. Let’s deal with it.