A Sad and Love Story

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There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl. This
Romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she couldn’t visualize any future for the both of them, so they went their own ways there and then... Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regains his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of him. Finally with all these hard work and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company… You never fail until you stop trying. One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize those were his girl's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He made it! Before the guy can realize, the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and he got out of his car and followed...and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes beside her... Her parents saw him. He asks them why had this happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle... therefore she had chosen to leave him. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again...he can take some of those back with him...Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever. The guy just wept...The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them ...........hope u understand. Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.

I QUIT.

"Sometimes we just have to know, WHEN TO QUIT"

Many times i 've tried to be tough...I've tried to learned the hard way..... Sometimes I'm always caught off guard... the reason I became too weak, the reason why I'm in denial, the reason why i assumed and end up so disappointed.

Tonight. Though i dunno if i can stand this but sure thing i just want to quit. Quit this thing. I have my whole life to do this thing i guess. Good Vibes nga sabi nila.

I dunno why, but i find it very brave to admit my defeat.
I guess looking at the positive aspects of your life will definitely make you a better person... So true...Somehow i feel relieved..

I'm so thankful that even if i lost this battle still i'm able to look at the bright things that this thing had given me.

Thank God. No more escape. No more fake smiles. Just a new smile defined by HOPE, CHANGE and OPTIMISM.

I will definitely miss the days...

HARD, PAINFUL, YET THIS IS WHAT YOU CALL RIGHT.

goodbye.
Tonight, I'm closing a chapter in the book that contains the story of my life.

I LOST. I QUIT.

NEXT CHAPTER?
Hmm.. i guess sad endings sometimes lead to new happy beginnings. who knows, maybe next chapter isn't that so bad. haha...

SCREW FACEBOOK!

"Your account is temporarily unavailable due to site maintenance. It should be available again within a few hours. We apologize for the inconvenience."

Seriously, just when i thought i could have a break and start doing things on FB, well that note appears and it ruined everything! Screw on you FB! Anyways, Please fix this ASAP. I badly need to see some important messages from my page.. huhuhu.... please please.. i didn't kill anybody.. why on earth you have done this to me!!!! >O.A

TOYSTORY3

Juvenile as it may look like.. but this movie made me cry! *sniff-sniff*. We all grow up! But moving on is just like the hardest part of it! Sometimes we must let go of something from the past in order for us to keep moving forward.

A TEAM

“Individual commitment to a group effort" My motto for the Win! I'm not lacking with consideration...or understanding... I JUST CAN'T TAKE OF ANYMORE THAT IS TOO MUCH! Cause if i do.. then its beyond stupidity! I'll work my ass off, not only for myself.. but for the group! Hope everyone will do the same!

Some of the thoughts. Some Blogblahblah.

Isn’t it really so tiring? I mean all this time all I do is to think of the things that I could possibly do. Things that I’ve really wanted long enough to do! Things that some kind of impossible. I guess I’m not that so sick about it…. A little I guess. I just couldn’t start to finish the race. The more I think about it, the harder it gets for me to handle it. I want a sweet perfection.. (please Cris.. let me have this line for a while).

I’m giving you thoughts. Not making you sick.
I know I talk bad ass…. But if you just bear with it. You’ll see ‘me’.

Today is a friend’s special day. She’s one of a heck crazy. That’s why we’re friends. The reason why I love my friends.

Peace. Love. What the f***.
LOVE – I’m missing my mama and papa. So badly that I can’t pass a day without thinking if they were ok.

LOVE 2 – This is plainly boring. I just don’t get it how we end up liking someone who doesn’t like you back! Hmmm…. Maybe one day I’ll wake up without this weight hanging on my head and this knife stabbed in my heart. That’s the best thing to do. To HOPE.

PEACE – Seriously, I’ve lost all the peace in this world! Will peace exist in a life full of twist and turns? Will peace exist when you feel so unheaerted? Will peace exist when you see flaws bangin inside of you? PEACE comes when everything is calm.. When there are no more worries to worry about.


What on earth am I talking? Haha…

JEEPNEY LOVESTORY

Woot... finally the long wait is over! Jeeplovestory Music Video is out! Oh how i badly waited for this! :)) I'm a certified Yeng fan!



This video was actually produced by Yeng herself! So awesome right! I also love the cameo! woot super bigtime! Plus the leading man... Ivan Dorschner! :))

MYFIRSTIECEPGA

I don’t bother to wake up early every time there’s a gathering or some school events at our school, whether it was a major major (miss phil?) gathering or a “so-so” one. The thing is, I just can’t leave my bed. I’m too sleepy to resist the comfort of it. Especially too early in the morning. Anyhow, I will not continue my talking about how I usually end up coming late in every school events (include the regular class too…) that I must attend. I just want to tell that I’m so f***** late again, and this time dragging a friend name Julie who patiently waits for me just to reserved the pact that last night I was really really sure I will able to accomplished, and that is to come at school 7AM SHARP! And I am a SHARK on t! lol.

Everything was like in a fast forward. Check out Lhei’s place. While she was still in deep sleep. We rush in at Mcdo. Headed school. Guess what? , the rain wouldn’t want us to take the journey so easy! Gawd, it was raining so hard that we end up soaking wet! Char!


At the school, Gym to be specific.

Ok. So what is this place? So many people. Picture Picture. Waah what a nuisance scene. (don’t get me wrong, it is nuisance due to the fact that we always does it! Lol). There are so many participants in this so called G.A for IECEP. And so what do you expect from a first timer like me? Scream to death like where on earth I am? Of course that’s too much of your imagination, I just sit there and waited for the moment till I absorbed everything that was happening around me, including the countless number of people i saw. Things go well especially when some of my ever early bird friends showed up. (The fudge, I thought I am the one who rock on this late thingy, never thought I could be beaten up with my friends.. char!). And we did the part that I always enjoyed. Picture Picture. Then here comes program proper. Wow, I was really mesmerized by the superb natural talent of the host coming from BPSU. Ok, enough with sarcasm. Lol. Waah.. in my own opinion which is everyone is entitled, I think ate Tere (our IECEP president) could have done it better than the girl from BPSU. And oh, I almost forgot we’ve got a male host! Haha.. Ate BPSU’s ka-loveteam daw! Haha.. ok. Enough with ranting the hosts, I don’t know what will happen if I’m on there shoe…. Maybe I’m dead now. Chos!
Hmm.. what else… Oh yeah, the games. Oh sweet holy cat… I swear to God, if you ask me if I enjoyed it? Waaahh… I almost cut my hair! Why? Just imagine countless papers I need to sign up just to fill in the box that says, “Long haired girl from Columban College”. WTFUDGE.

BREAK TIME.LUNCH TIME. KIM SAVES US. LOL.
Thanks for the treat Kim, sana everyday birthday mo, para everyday libre. Char! 

Seminars.

Here’s the loveliest part. I can’t remember anything that had been discussed. Lol. I’m too busy thinking about how long it will last. Lol.
JULIE&KIMS FAVORITE PART. LETRAN BOYS PROD!
You can literally see the twinkle in their eyes seeing those cute boys from Letran. Haha.

RAFFLE.WHENWILLIWIN?
I’m so damn hopeless. Kulang na lang lahat ng santo tawagin ko na manalo lang ako, pero ang swerte ko talaga, sawi palagi. Dang!

FINALETHATROCKS!
It’s time to say babye to them. They’re going back home. And we must clean up all the mess that they leave to us. Sort like remembrance daw. Yes.. C2 bottles, mineral, chips achuchu… Yeah literally. I enjoyed cleaning up somehow, because it’s so easy when it is a team. (Aminin, may kasama pang showtime achuchu… magtutupi lang ng table cloth noh Kim? Chos!)




ONE ORGANIZATION, ONE PROFESSION, ONE FAMILY.
Yan ang sabi ng IECEP.

“WE SALUTE YOU”
Sabi ng Dean.

To end up, I would say I did enjoyed this event. Somehow it increases the heat of the fiery ECE in me. :)) To the organizers and to those who help and support! Kudos to all, you simply nailed it! Rockenroll! *clap-clap-clap* Goodluck to all of us worthy future Engineers! 

That would be all!



But I guess not!
Side kwentos:
After the event we went home. But I decided to buy something first. So we went our separate ways. On my way home, Julie texted me, “Dai hindi ko pa nahananap si –tutuutt Letran sa FB.” Guess what it was like 10 minutes ng maghiwalay kame. Eh sa tantiya ko, 7mins ang byahe pauwe. So anu yun Julie? Pagpasok sa bahay, sipa pintuan, internet, facebook, search si tutuutt agad?! Chos! Haha..

THE HIBERNATION PERIOD IS OVER, I GUESS?

*sigh* wow.. it's been like a couple of months since my last post... goodthing i'm saving some journals in the computer... So here's what I've got.... :) Ah... "emo-thing" hate it! But yes, that's what happen... Guess what? I'm a SURVIVOR! :)


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Hello. Wow, it’s been a long time since my last post here… Honestly I don’t know how to start this blog entry… I don’t know exactly what to say… I guess for the past weeks of May up to the first week of June, my life was in a roller coaster. Well I know that’s life. Damn. It was so hurtful. Now we’re still recovering. I’m still in a state of moving on.

May, it was actually my favorite month, basically because my birthday falls on the 25th of this month. A month usually full of celebrations like family gatherings, summer get away with my friends, my parents’ wedding anniversary and of course my birthday. Unfortunately May 2010 was the saddest.

I feel this kind of feeling before, pero iba pa rin talaga kapag hindi lang ikaw ang involved. This was like more hurtful than dealing with my own struggles in life. Because for me, what’s more hurtful is when you see your love ones hurting.

My mom, she always screams at me, saying bad things against me, she almost hates all the things that I want, most of the time she don’t understand me, I admit these things makes me feel so broken, but despite of all these things I love her so much.

Who wouldn’t have thought something unexpected will happen to her. She was sick; it hurts me more seeing her in a bad condition. We spent our whole month at the hospital, for a month it seems like a regular basis, waking up early at 7am and sleeping late at 2am. Oatmeal became my favorite meal. One thing, I celebrated my birthday also at the hospital, it was very unusual, yeah of course. Well aside from the environment, maybe because I wasn’t able to celebrate my birthday with the company of my friends but its ok, I feel so love because I was remembered on my special day. Actually I didn’t feel like celebrating at all, what’s the use of celebration if you see your mom in pain, it was a terrible experience, at that time I wish my birthday would be in another month.

At that point, I knew God was up for something, it’s not only about the pain, it’s more on “learning”…. Learning the lessons of life. I love my mom, with that I feel so rational to say, that after all these pains brought by some crazy twist in our life, my life, I’m still thankful to the lord. He was there when I needed him the most.

UPDATE 1
Hi there, this is so unusual… for the longest time I feel so damn sad. I know this is what you call self pity, how I badly wish I could escape this crap! But I feel so shuttered. My world is in slow motion, I can feel every heartbreaking seconds of it! That’s beyond hurtful! Everyday I find escape from simple things… like goofing around with some of my bestest friends…. I wish this thing called loneliness will leave me…


UPDATE 2
Yes, it was indeed a rollercoaster ride… guess what after a couple of days feeling lonely… a couple of days happy… here comes history again… Cliché again, but that’s that! That’s LIFE!