So here's what happened last time, after the so sudden so unexpected days. Somehow I managed to be.. me... AGAIN. and i tell you, that is so.... BORING. "
Ok, March what? March 31. Today.
I need to wake up. But my body can't resist the lovely comfort of my lovely pillow and bed. But i must.. i must brush off this sleepy aura.. not now Tina! I told myself. So that's when i managed to sit down, say a little morning prayer, grabbed my phone then text-ed my friends. "Hello, dai, lhei and Mhay, heard the news? halfday holiday daw. So we need to go to school early. as in morning. 9am. see you there!"
I was too quick with everything. Brushing my teeth...breakfast (ow.. did i really ate? lol. dunno ) .. blah blah... i did even take a bath for like 10minutes only?? and to tell you that is a MIRACLE. I usually take bath for like 1 hour. So there, i finished my daily morning ritual. Then all of a suddenly Julie texted me that she will be going at the school too so i'll have to wait for her.
I also accomplished my daily Facebook ritual.lol.. i don't wanna play Cafe World with any single spoiled meal! FYI! hahaha.... so that's it JUlie came and we went to the school.
@ the SCHOOL.
I hate the atmosphere of a school without the typical noisy atmosphere of lurking students! Damn, nabibingi ako sa sobrang katahimikan. Some of my frineds came too.. Mhay, Joseph, Lhei and Von.
DAMN. MY GRADES.. I KNOW I CAN DO BETTER THAN THAT. anyways.. it's a gift that I'm passing! I promise myself i will break not only a leg next SY but everything! lol. ok enough with my exaggerated hyperbole. I know where I'm lacking of.. so I will work on to it! ossh!! dattebayooo!! Tina! :)) After we hit on the school we ate at MINI-STOP and have some fun fun get together.. :)) Miss Krungsss!
Monday. the truth will be unfold! *crossed-fingers* Wish me luck! Guide me trough this Papa God. :)
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
SO SUDDEN
Previously in my Life..
"Hello blog, i tell you last time that my mom is so sick... I feel so depressed and sad about it.. Who would want to see their moms in pain? eh? and also.. last time, i feel so guilty about breaking a promise...well uhmm.. with my friends... I wish i could go with my friends and have fun.. but i just couldn't! See... As if i can enjoy if all i can think and do at that time was to worry about my mom's condition... "
Now what?
Yesterday, i missed blogging... that was because i can't go online for like i usually do. What i did when i woke up early yesterday was to assist and took care of my mom.. and at that point, my mom's conditions worsens... She was so weak.. and again, frequently vomiting.. I was terrified.. and sort like in panic, i don't know what to do, since I was left alone with her..
so that was when I decided to call up dad and let her medications continue at the Hospital. This is so sudden.
We headed at St. Jude Family Hospital, there, a lot of medications were done. Super natakot ako dun sa nurse.. well not exactly to the nurse but with his syringe! Aww, that thing scared the sh*t out of me... (as if i was the one who'll face it.lol) I admit.. I feel goosebumps.. i don't know... i just hate hospitals... or maybe i don't hate it.. i'm just scared with it... ok back to the story, So that's it i was a little nervous, different thoughts starts to lurk in my mind. You see, for me, this is so unusual. I have never been admitted into Hospital before so it's kinda weird. After some of the medications and treatments, we headed at the Hospital's Female Ward, since this hospital is private, Wards capacity are for three to four patients only. Actually there is only one patient staying at the ward before my mom. And she's nice. Her name is Tita Jillieta. :)
After a couple of hours staying at the hospital, i decided to went home first and get some of the necessary stuffs that my mom will be using. When i came back, i feel so damn exhausted. I don't have a choice but to walk my way back to the Hospital in a sunny day. It burns... i mean literally..
THE EARTHQUAKE THINGY:
i was resting a bit for a while besides my mom's bed. I don't feel bored at that time. It's just that i don't feel like being it. So with my headset resting to its appropriate place, my ears i suppose... i closed my eyes and tried to at least have a good power nap. It was quarter to 1pm. Suddenly... i think my dad is snoozing so badly ( i was with my dad also, together we took care of my mom.) Feeling like shaking up a bit. But wth! to my surprise, it wasn't my dad's snoozing or something... the fact was, the ground was shaking! Tita Jillieta (Mom's roommate) felt it too.. and she's like frantically grabbing her dextrose ready to take off and abandoned the shaking St. Jude Hospital. Well, i bet if you just have seen my face at that time you might cracked up a bit... i was like in deep shocked, wondering what to do. This is the first time i experienced this kind of earthquake! And it runs for a long 9 seconds i think... (probably one of the longest 9 seconds in my life) literally you could see that the Hospital is shaking.. Thank God, no one was hurt.
After of long hours taking care of my Mom, again i was sent back at home to do this and do that thing.. ( a demand by my father, that i must... not disobey:))
And once i got back, to my surprised, there was another patient. We called her "Inang" she's a sweet granny at the age of 83. Oh, how i love it when she smiles. She's the sweetest :) Tita Divine, the one whose taking care with Inang was so cool. Cool in a sense that she has a bubbly personality, i mean at some point in your life when you become a stranger you would wish for someone like tita Divine who know how to treat a stranger in a nice way whenever you're out somewhere... She keeps on reminding me of Engr. Bheng (our dean in College Engineering) and Sue Sylvester of Glee. So i say Seize it! lol.. Newly found friends not only for my parents, but me too... I find them so interesting to talk to. :)
2ND DAY AT THE HOSPITAL.
Nothing much had happened, but some of the things i notice at the Hospital are these:
► Nurses : Aside from the fact that they do look good physically, i think they're like the sweetest creature on earth! Aww, they do take care of as if my mom was their mom too. :) Specially Mr. Nurse, the only male nurse who took care of my mom aww.. he's my crush.:)
► St. Jude Hospital : best food ever! Ok, i know what you're thinking. tinikman ko lang naman.. hehe
hmm.. what else??
i think that's it.. They do have a good service! Keep it up St. Jude Family Hospital! :)
Yesterday, March 27, Earth Hour... my mom went home :)
Thank God. She's with us again! Healthier than ever!
DAYS OF SO SUDDEN AND SO UNEXPECTED.
Yes, i know, definitely more days like this so called "so sudden/so unexpected days" will come. Right. But one thing I've learned. Its not all about the bad side that you should see.. You know, in times like this we should also see the beauty. The beauty of life, the beauty that we all run in circles, the beauty of undying Hope, the beauty of faith, the beauty of infinite possibilities of a better tomorrow, the beauty of life that no matter how bad the situation you're facing, there is a God by your side. Loving and guiding you all the way.
IN LIFE EVERYTHING MAY SEEMS SO UNFAIR JUST DON'T FORGET TO LEAN ON, on He's will, and ALSO in your will to follow him:)
"Hello blog, i tell you last time that my mom is so sick... I feel so depressed and sad about it.. Who would want to see their moms in pain? eh? and also.. last time, i feel so guilty about breaking a promise...well uhmm.. with my friends... I wish i could go with my friends and have fun.. but i just couldn't! See... As if i can enjoy if all i can think and do at that time was to worry about my mom's condition... "
Now what?
Yesterday, i missed blogging... that was because i can't go online for like i usually do. What i did when i woke up early yesterday was to assist and took care of my mom.. and at that point, my mom's conditions worsens... She was so weak.. and again, frequently vomiting.. I was terrified.. and sort like in panic, i don't know what to do, since I was left alone with her..
so that was when I decided to call up dad and let her medications continue at the Hospital. This is so sudden.
We headed at St. Jude Family Hospital, there, a lot of medications were done. Super natakot ako dun sa nurse.. well not exactly to the nurse but with his syringe! Aww, that thing scared the sh*t out of me... (as if i was the one who'll face it.lol) I admit.. I feel goosebumps.. i don't know... i just hate hospitals... or maybe i don't hate it.. i'm just scared with it... ok back to the story, So that's it i was a little nervous, different thoughts starts to lurk in my mind. You see, for me, this is so unusual. I have never been admitted into Hospital before so it's kinda weird. After some of the medications and treatments, we headed at the Hospital's Female Ward, since this hospital is private, Wards capacity are for three to four patients only. Actually there is only one patient staying at the ward before my mom. And she's nice. Her name is Tita Jillieta. :)
After a couple of hours staying at the hospital, i decided to went home first and get some of the necessary stuffs that my mom will be using. When i came back, i feel so damn exhausted. I don't have a choice but to walk my way back to the Hospital in a sunny day. It burns... i mean literally..
THE EARTHQUAKE THINGY:
i was resting a bit for a while besides my mom's bed. I don't feel bored at that time. It's just that i don't feel like being it. So with my headset resting to its appropriate place, my ears i suppose... i closed my eyes and tried to at least have a good power nap. It was quarter to 1pm. Suddenly... i think my dad is snoozing so badly ( i was with my dad also, together we took care of my mom.) Feeling like shaking up a bit. But wth! to my surprise, it wasn't my dad's snoozing or something... the fact was, the ground was shaking! Tita Jillieta (Mom's roommate) felt it too.. and she's like frantically grabbing her dextrose ready to take off and abandoned the shaking St. Jude Hospital. Well, i bet if you just have seen my face at that time you might cracked up a bit... i was like in deep shocked, wondering what to do. This is the first time i experienced this kind of earthquake! And it runs for a long 9 seconds i think... (probably one of the longest 9 seconds in my life) literally you could see that the Hospital is shaking.. Thank God, no one was hurt.
After of long hours taking care of my Mom, again i was sent back at home to do this and do that thing.. ( a demand by my father, that i must... not disobey:))
And once i got back, to my surprised, there was another patient. We called her "Inang" she's a sweet granny at the age of 83. Oh, how i love it when she smiles. She's the sweetest :) Tita Divine, the one whose taking care with Inang was so cool. Cool in a sense that she has a bubbly personality, i mean at some point in your life when you become a stranger you would wish for someone like tita Divine who know how to treat a stranger in a nice way whenever you're out somewhere... She keeps on reminding me of Engr. Bheng (our dean in College Engineering) and Sue Sylvester of Glee. So i say Seize it! lol.. Newly found friends not only for my parents, but me too... I find them so interesting to talk to. :)
2ND DAY AT THE HOSPITAL.
Nothing much had happened, but some of the things i notice at the Hospital are these:
► Nurses : Aside from the fact that they do look good physically, i think they're like the sweetest creature on earth! Aww, they do take care of as if my mom was their mom too. :) Specially Mr. Nurse, the only male nurse who took care of my mom aww.. he's my crush.:)
► St. Jude Hospital : best food ever! Ok, i know what you're thinking. tinikman ko lang naman.. hehe
hmm.. what else??
i think that's it.. They do have a good service! Keep it up St. Jude Family Hospital! :)
Yesterday, March 27, Earth Hour... my mom went home :)
Thank God. She's with us again! Healthier than ever!
DAYS OF SO SUDDEN AND SO UNEXPECTED.
Yes, i know, definitely more days like this so called "so sudden/so unexpected days" will come. Right. But one thing I've learned. Its not all about the bad side that you should see.. You know, in times like this we should also see the beauty. The beauty of life, the beauty that we all run in circles, the beauty of undying Hope, the beauty of faith, the beauty of infinite possibilities of a better tomorrow, the beauty of life that no matter how bad the situation you're facing, there is a God by your side. Loving and guiding you all the way.
IN LIFE EVERYTHING MAY SEEMS SO UNFAIR JUST DON'T FORGET TO LEAN ON, on He's will, and ALSO in your will to follow him:)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
MY MOM IS SICK :(
I don't know how to start this one... Pero one thing i know... I'm sad... and this time.. i know where is this shitty feeling is coming from :(
Last Monday, after i nailed that physics exam.. Pinagplanuhan ko na, na by Tuesday, i'll do this and do that.. but unfortunately here comes the unexpected.
Tuesday. I was really in a deep sleep at my room, when suddenly I'm alarmed with what was happening in the living room.I woke up, brushed off my sleepy aura then hurriedly went outside to check what was happening. Then I saw my mom, i don't know how to described this, but when i saw her, my knees starts shaking. She was so helpless, she can barely move or spill some words because she feels so cold in a day of hot blazing summer. She's sick. I don't know why so sudden... Ang alam ko, she sneak in to my room pa early in the morning, then ask me if i'll be using my calculator.... Yes.. nagusap pa kame... if im not mistaken it was early at 5am when i got to talk to her regarding the calculator thing. God, she's so weak and i know she's in pain too. It breaks my heart seeing her like that. I spend the day taking care of her since my dad need to go back at work.
That night, i thought everything was like ok na... Bumaba na ang lagnat niya... less vomitting... she's kinda looks ok na din... that was i thought..
Then early today, we got so alarmed again, she's constantly vomitting for like every 15mins... it hurts to see my mom that way... i wish ako na lang.. kasi alam ko malakas pa ako to handle that.. She's so weak... i can barely see how much pain she feels right into her eyes... I wish na sana gumaling na siya.. Cause I'm not use to see her like that...
And another thing, i feel so damn guilty.... I have a commitment to attend today...
Supposedly today is my get together outing w/ my college friends at Nikka's place. I really wish i could go, but i can't. It is difficult to handle this kind of feeling, Sana naging mas mabuti na lang saken ang tadhana... I feel so damn guilty.. and I'm very very sorry.. last time i checked myself, I'm the one who's been very excited with this event, yet when this moment came in time, i was like the one who's telling everybody that i couldn't go. I wish that my friends would understand me... I know somehow they do. As for me, HIndi ko alam kong anung gagawin ko, just to make things up with them... specially with Nikka. I know she's upset and so disappointed at this point. God knows how i wish to be there.
Right now, i have fallen to this time of my life where in I can't be a "friend" and a "daughter" at the same time. As for now, i choose to be a daughter... Di ko kakayanin yun.. habang may sakit ang mama ko nagpapakasaya ako.:(
At this very moment I',m writing this blog. My mom is sleeping.
Get well Soon, Mama...
I love you :)
Last Monday, after i nailed that physics exam.. Pinagplanuhan ko na, na by Tuesday, i'll do this and do that.. but unfortunately here comes the unexpected.
Tuesday. I was really in a deep sleep at my room, when suddenly I'm alarmed with what was happening in the living room.I woke up, brushed off my sleepy aura then hurriedly went outside to check what was happening. Then I saw my mom, i don't know how to described this, but when i saw her, my knees starts shaking. She was so helpless, she can barely move or spill some words because she feels so cold in a day of hot blazing summer. She's sick. I don't know why so sudden... Ang alam ko, she sneak in to my room pa early in the morning, then ask me if i'll be using my calculator.... Yes.. nagusap pa kame... if im not mistaken it was early at 5am when i got to talk to her regarding the calculator thing. God, she's so weak and i know she's in pain too. It breaks my heart seeing her like that. I spend the day taking care of her since my dad need to go back at work.
That night, i thought everything was like ok na... Bumaba na ang lagnat niya... less vomitting... she's kinda looks ok na din... that was i thought..
Then early today, we got so alarmed again, she's constantly vomitting for like every 15mins... it hurts to see my mom that way... i wish ako na lang.. kasi alam ko malakas pa ako to handle that.. She's so weak... i can barely see how much pain she feels right into her eyes... I wish na sana gumaling na siya.. Cause I'm not use to see her like that...
And another thing, i feel so damn guilty.... I have a commitment to attend today...
Supposedly today is my get together outing w/ my college friends at Nikka's place. I really wish i could go, but i can't. It is difficult to handle this kind of feeling, Sana naging mas mabuti na lang saken ang tadhana... I feel so damn guilty.. and I'm very very sorry.. last time i checked myself, I'm the one who's been very excited with this event, yet when this moment came in time, i was like the one who's telling everybody that i couldn't go. I wish that my friends would understand me... I know somehow they do. As for me, HIndi ko alam kong anung gagawin ko, just to make things up with them... specially with Nikka. I know she's upset and so disappointed at this point. God knows how i wish to be there.
Right now, i have fallen to this time of my life where in I can't be a "friend" and a "daughter" at the same time. As for now, i choose to be a daughter... Di ko kakayanin yun.. habang may sakit ang mama ko nagpapakasaya ako.:(
At this very moment I',m writing this blog. My mom is sleeping.
Get well Soon, Mama...
I love you :)
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
SOON TO BE ENGINEERS CAMPAIGN
Ok let me tell you one fact about me, I'm an Engineering Student :)
And just like anyone else who's pursuing their own career for their future, I really wish someday that my dream will come true... as for me I hope that someday I'll be an Engineer. :)
So along with my friends, I started this so-called "Soon to be Engineers Photo Campaign"
here are some of the pictures I've got for the said campaign..
COLUMBAN COLLEGE ENGINEERING STUDENTS
LYNDON
JOSEPH
JAIDENE
JOLAS
NIKKA
AL
ROCHELLE
MHAY
LHEIANNE
KIM
JULIE
i'll post updates soon...
btw, I'm planning to take shots to all the cc engineering students... but as for now, i'm sticking with my friends and oh... i don't yet have enough guts to do that.. hehe..:))
And just like anyone else who's pursuing their own career for their future, I really wish someday that my dream will come true... as for me I hope that someday I'll be an Engineer. :)
So along with my friends, I started this so-called "Soon to be Engineers Photo Campaign"
here are some of the pictures I've got for the said campaign..
LYNDON
JOSEPH
JAIDENE
JOLAS
NIKKA
AL
ROCHELLE
MHAY
LHEIANNE
KIM
JULIE
i'll post updates soon...
btw, I'm planning to take shots to all the cc engineering students... but as for now, i'm sticking with my friends and oh... i don't yet have enough guts to do that.. hehe..:))
FRESH NEW START
Greetings!
So here i am starting a new blog in a new site.
HERE COMES, NEW BEGINNING.
here's the link to my old blog account in friendster :)
http://ckrizxtina.blog.friendster.com/
I end up liking blogging because for me it's like some sort of comfort. Specially in dealing with emotions. You know, if you find yourself hanging around with nothing but with your own existence... don't have someone to talk to... you'll just find at least comfort in spilling out your emotions at your blog.:)
Well i guess sharing some of my stories to the public won't make any harm to me or to anyone i guess.. So.. look who's here... blogging..:)
---xtina
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